I’m not sure that anyone knows a single true thing. Everything that I once thought was great, original or profound has lost its lustre. My own internal voice does not even feel like it belongs to me. I am aware of it from the outside as well as creating it from the inside. Sometimes I feel like I am merely a representation rather than a human being. I don’t know what is an illusion and what is real. Perhaps life is one massive deception. I seem to be constantly tugging at knots. Philosophy must be the science of madness. It never provides any answers- only endless speculation.
There are many good thoughts
waiting to be found
If you can only see the bad ones
then turn yourself around.
Today I was feeling strange, but this is itself is not unusual. I spend so much of my life feeling peculiar that I hardly know what normal is anymore. The trouble is that although I know I don’t feel right, I can’t put my finger on precisely what is wrong.
It’s like when one bad note on the piano makes the whole tune sound offbeat, but you just can’t work out which one it is. Suddenly, the pleasant background music becomes discordant and ill-sounding. In fact, for the first time you begin to notice that the music’s even there at all. From that moment forth nothing makes quite the same sense it did before. You’ve suddenly got music where there was no music- and it ain’t sounding nice either.
I know this sounds very odd, but it’s tricky to describe.. All I know for sure is that I’ve been feeling strange, but I can’t seem to find the note to put everything right.
I am trying very hard to be a good human, but I’m not sure I’m doing very well at it.
All natural objects have their own unique sense of charm and wonder. They come in an infinite variety of forms, textures, colours and shapes. Be curious and inquisitive. Go out into the world and delight in what is all around you. Notice things. Take nothing for granted. Remember that every moment is unique and unrepeatable. Look again at objects that you would usually pass by or consider ordinary; it could be a brick wall, a door handle, fallen leaves or the point of a pencil. Observe life from new angles and pay attention to the experiences you are having. The meaning we give to things can be renewed and transformed by making use of our minds and challenging the way we think. Try to see what difference it makes if you choose to have ‘encounters’ with the things around you on your walks. Anything can be a source of inspiration. Our imaginations really do have the power to change the relationship with have with the world. If you can open your eyes and see –not merely look- you will find that life need never be boring again.