There are things that I need to do with my existence. I have been waiting far too long to come alive. For so long I was knocking at the door and no one answered. I was left outside in the cold. Alone, afraid and hopeless. But now I realise. I have the key. I must open the door for myself. No one can do it for me. Now is the time. No more knocking.  I am arriving. I am letting myself in.